Sick!

I love being a mom. I hate being a mom of a sick little boy who cant tell me whats wrong! For 24 hours James was extremely fussy. He cried himself to sleep, refused to hold still for diaper changes, would not sit on his butt without a fight, and we could not figure out what was wrong! We went from formula, tearing something while pooping solids, teething, bad headache from him standing fall, ear-infection, EVERYTHING! Then almost 24 hours later I found the problem. Way up his butt crack on the side of his butt was a pocket of blood/puss. He was not happy that I found it. I let him crawl around naked while I chased him trying to see the problem. When I got a good grip on it and squeezed I was rewarded with blood and puss and James pee'd. So off to the Dr we went (where he rode in my lap or on the floor because he refused to sit in his car seat.

After a good inspection it was decided that a Pilonidal cyst had formed off his tail bone and it was going to be removed (with a scapel). I stepped out of the room because I cannot handle James crying/screaming. After it was all said and done James is much happier. It's draining nicely and James is taking his medicine very well. He's very quiet today and not the smiley baby he usually is. But I think that's the medicine.

Other then that he's wearing 12 month clothes, 21 lbs, unknown length, size 4 shoes, and almost every day he stands all by himself in the middle of the living room, thankfully he falls down on his butt very well. He loves to play with shoes, balls, and remotes. Oh and of course mommies fountains! He's eating #2 solids very well, and the occational #3, but he doesn't care for the texture just yet. He loves snacks, so does mommy because it keeps him entertained while mommy cooks AND eats her dinner ;)

I'm back to work tomorrow, James is doing much better and hopefully can return to daycare. We may venture back to the DR office today just to get checked on, better safe then sorry! I don't want a hospital visit!!!!

6 teeth!

James went from 4 to 6 teeth in one week. Perhaps that's why he's been soooooooo grumpy? We're also moving him to his crib this week. We cant decide to let him cry it out or let him wake up and throw his schedule off. He just sleeps better cuddled next to us. I have almosted stopped producing milk, it makes my work day go by much faster, but part of me still feels like I should have tried harder.

This morning he has furniture walked and stood on his own for long periods of time. Lately he has been more interested in mom and dad are doing then playing with his toys. Daddy is trying to talk mommy into a play pen, but she like's baby gates better which give him more room to explore.

I hope to get more pictures on Facebook this weekend, but I'm not making any promises.

when do you call it quits?

I always knew I wanted to breast feed James, my goal was to make it a year. Chris thought I would make it 6 (proved him wrong!). At 5 months we had to start using our freezer supply to keep up. At 6 months we had to introduce formula. Now at 7 months James is drinking about 2/3 formula and a 1/3 breast milk. It's starting to become a waste of my time to spend 10 minuets every 4 hours on average pumping and only producing 3 oz of milk. So when does a mom throw in the towel? I'm not a huge fan of formula. It's only good for an hour once it's warmed/made, and a pre-made bottle is only good for 24 hours in the fridge. Breast milk is much easier to work with! However I really can't explain how much of a pain in the butt it is for me to pump at work, or how much of a fight it is to pump with James trying to pull my tubes out.

Part of me feels like a failure, the other part says "hey you gave it your best". Either way my goal was one year, I'm just over half way there, thats not that great.

Alright apparently it's bed time. night all!

7 months

James is 7 months today, and boy is he grumpy!!!!!! He's standing whenever possible (whenever there is something high for him to hold onto), crawling like a mad man, eating solids when he feels like it, doesn't like bibs, still loves baths, has four almost 5 teeth, and loves cords (especially the ones attached to my fountains! Later today I'll be boxing up his 6-9 month clothes and taking out the 12months! He eats cherios however last night he choked on some which really scared mommy! Today we're working on his sippy cup skills!

2011

Well our household 2011 goal is to go soda free. Today is the 2nd day of 2011 and I already had a soda. I woke up at 6 am with major headache, took medicine and after two hours I still had the headache, so I drank a pepsi I had stashed in the garage. No more headache! It's very difficult for me to refrain myself from pepsi, but I'm giving it my all. Everyone tells me to just drink diet. But the overall picture is soda isn't good for you diet or non diet, and I would rather not raise James around it. Chris isn't much better, as he can drink 44oz of diet coke in an hour and not even realize he drank a soda when I ask him a couple hours later. So when you come over to our house, dont complain about water, milk and juice!

It's the slow time for me at work, not a lot of people take time off Jan-April. This coming week I'm only working 4 days, the following week I'll work 4 days, but their only half days. However the good news is were switching daycare to someone who goes day by day so we'll be saving money that way (and I get to spend more time with James!!!!! WIN WIN!). Is everyone doing the snow dance? I know we are!!!!!

So last week was my last full time schedule for a while. I was going through a house magazine and found an AMAZING house for sale in Wasilla. It had a large detached shop, carport (which is what I perfer believe it or not), and it was almost 5 acres with mature tree's, away from the road, good location, and the RIGHT PRICE! So after I point it out to Chris and he gets excited about it, two days later he gets a call from the company he had work lined up with in Wasilla that they now have room for him. DAY LATE DOLLAR SHORT! Words cant explain how frustrating it was for us. If I had toughed it out and commuted for 4 months (thats being away from my family for 12 hours a day, 5 days a week), we could have had the house rented out by now, and possibly be living in the Valley! GRRRRRRRRRRRRR. BUT everything happens for a reason .... if it was ment to be it would have happened ...... right?

Hopefully the weather holds out and we'll be in Fairbanks next weekend for a short visit, it would be nice to get of the house for a while. Alright, laundry needs switched and clothes need folded. It may be a new year, but some things never change!